It’s always my intention to be as honest with ya’ll as possible, but it’s also embarrassing when I don’t set out to do the things I intend to do. I’m not clear if this was truly a lack of willpower of some sort or a true “this is not working, and I need to change my plan” thing, but here’s the story. I’ll let you decide.
I’ve been hungry, starving really, almost every day. Even right after I eat a big meal, I’m still hungry. This hasn’t made a lot of sense to me, as I shouldn’t be going through any drastic sugar or caffeine withdrawals, like I did when I first went Paleo (with AIP). I had a flare-up of some kind a few nights ago (hives, followed by more active RA). I wondered if it was cinnamon or coconut milk. I’ve been having good days, but I’m still waking up sore and slightly stuff in the AM since that cinnamon night. My thyroid eye disease (which strangely seems to operate similarly yet differently than my RA, one can be active without the other) has also gotten worse the last few days. What does it all mean? I set out to do AIP to tease this stuff apart, but all around I’ve been doing worse since starting AIP!
Yesterday, I went to work, my brain was foggy, I felt weak, and I was hungry all day. I’ve been under a bit of stress at work (that I was hoping would end today, but unfortunately it has been “to be continued” until the end of Feb). I’ve also been under a lot of mommy stress at home, and my son has been needing a lot of extra TLC.
So, yesterday, my eating went as follows:
- Shake (coconut milk, blueberry, banana, kale, unsweetened cocoa powder)
- 2 slices Applegate turkey
- Comfort chicken (chicken thighs, carrots, celery, sweet potatoes, garlic)
- Cuties (oranges)
- Hibiscus Tea
- 3/4 of a nondairy chocolate bar
- 1/2 cup of homemade granola (with TONS of cinnamon in it)
- Kit’s Organic Chocolate Almond Coconut Bar
I was SO Hungry, and still wasn’t full after eating all of this in a short period of time.
- Comfort Chicken
- More nondairy chocolate
How did I wake up this morning post-cinnamon? No hives. Better than the last few mornings, but still having insatiable hunger, less sore, no stiffness. I had planned on going back to AIP today, but I wound up not doing it. I’m wondering how much stress, poor sleep (allowing time for sleep, but not waking up feeling rested), lack of exercise (doing better, but need to “really get it going”), and mommy worry are playing into things. I think right now I have to halt my experiment until I get these other things “dialed in.” Basically, I’m not sure what I’m measuring right now, diet or other life circumstances. Unfortunately, some things are out of my control right now, and I’ll just have to wait them out. Some things, I can work on, like exercising, taking time to de-stress, and loving my little guy. Plus, my husband will be thrilled that we can eat pork again (part of my elimination this time around).
So, with that, I am off to take a bath and ponder my next moves. Suggestions are certainly welcome!